Flavor of the Week

I get sick of things very easily. I'm sure that when I was a kid I would play with toys for a few days and then throw them aside and want something else. I still act like this, especially with office supplies. I NEED (ok, I don't really need them, but I feel like I do..) new pens all the time! I have such the pen collection. Anyways, I am feeling this way with my blog background. I think I like it now, at least for tonight. The picture in the header was taken in my uncle's parent's garden in Germany. We spend a fair amount of time at their house and they have the most beautiful garden with a pond in their backyard. I spent so much time taking pictures back there I think they thought I was crazy. I hope we go there sometime this summer so I can take some pictures with my new camera! :)

I haven't been blogging as much as I had planned. Lately I've been in a funk. I'm falling behind in school, I owe money to a few different places (a mysterious bill from my school for $500, I thought loans covered that??), some appointments to go to (Endocrinologist, Psychologist, CT scan for my face), and to top off all of that I have to sleep for 15 hours a day.

I have been feeling sick for a few years. I originally had some not so pretty problems with my stomach. After lots of "searching" up there, the Gastroenterologist told me that he couldn't find anything wrong and diagnosed me Irritable Bowel Syndrome. I felt like crap. I went to see a General Practitioner who tested me for just about everything he could. I was diagnosed with Hypothyroidism and very low levels of Vitamin D. I am now taking supplements to level out both of those and I still feel like crap. I need so much sleep (15 hours and I will still be tired) and I have gained so much weight (80+ lbs. in less than 2 years). I had a sleep study done and I was diagnosed with Sleep Apnea. I now sleep with a CPAP machine every night, which still doesn't make me feel better. I've seen an ENT to figure out why I am snoring (besides gaining weight) and to figure out why it's so hard for me to breath and I now have nose spray to take every night. Next week I have a CT scan on my sinuses to see if there is an underlying problem in there that is causing me some problems. In May I have an appointment with an Endocrinologist to see if he can uncover what is causing all of my problems. On top of all of this, I have anxiety, OCD, and depression (and I can't figure out the right medicine for it, so were in a limbo with that also).

I know I could have it a lot worse, but I just get so frustrated. I have seriously considered dropping out of school because I just don't have the energy to go to class and do my work. I don't do anything anymore. I hardly even leave the house! I'm sorry if I have annoyed you or offended you with any of this but I am at the end of my rope. I'm sick of seeing doctor after doctor and not finding anything out!

If anything I just said rang a bell with you (about some kind of disorder or disease) let me know. Both my doctors and I are frustrated beyond belief. Or if you have any suggestions about what could help, let me know.

Thanks for listening :)